Receiving Gifts

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The things we really need come to us only as gifts, and in order to receive them as gifts we have to be open. In order to be open we have to renounce ourselves, in a sense we have to die to our image of ourselves, our autonomy, our fixation upon our self-willed identity. We have to be able to relax the psychic and spiritual cramp which knots us in the painful, vulnerable, helpless “I” that is all we know as ourselves.

The chronic inability to relax this cramp begets despair. In the end, as we realize more and more that we are knotted upon nothing, that the cramp is a meaningless, senseless, pointless affirmation of non-entity, and that we must nevertheless continue to affirm our nothingness over against everything else–our frustration becomes absolute. We become incapable of existing except as a “no,” which we fling in the face of everything. This “no” to everything serves as our pitiful “yes” to ourselves–a makeshift identity which is nothing.

#ThomasMerton, Conjectures of a Guilty Bystander, p. 204

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