A Christmas card came in the mail last week from Beth’s cousin. The Bible verse on the outside cover was Psalm 46:10; “Be still and know that I am God.” This has been my favorite Psalm for longer than I can remember.
Before I was diagnosed with a Chronic Major Depressive Disorder and a Severe Anxiety Disorder I knew there was a lot of chatter in my head. Regrets about the past, being unworthy in the present, and fear of the unknown and uncontrollable. Combined with incessant negative self-talk and panic in many situations, this verse was a plea, a prayer, a reminder.
I still pray this verse every day. My mind, despite therapy and medication, still swirls. Filled with unwelcome thoughts and ruminations this verse can anchor me sometimes. Other moments it’s a desperate hope that maybe one day the verse will be one of of thankfulness.