Today was a great day for working in the yard. The sun stayed behind thin clouds, a breeze kept one from getting too warm and no rain. As I mowed, trimmed, collected trash and went to the dump, helped my wife with the flowers, I reflected on a friend who’s going to an event tonight for the first time since her life changed dramatically several months ago. I know, in part, what she’s feeling. In 2014 my life irrevocably morphed into something I didn’t recognize anymore. After the trauma its difficult to try to find your way back to balance, peace and growth. It’s been four years for me and I am still waiting for the dust to settle.
The first year might be the most demanding and punishing. It is a “year of firsts.” Life goes on no matter how much you want it to stop so you can catch your breath. Things keep moving and you feel run over. The firsts keep coming; anniversaries, special days, holidays, birthdays, events, occasions, and there’s no ignoring them. It is a challenge to try and can be heartbreaking when the healing wound is punctured again. You hope, pray, you’ll be able to make it.
Wisdom teaches us that a humble spirit, good friends, and patience are the way to a new kind of wholeness and acceptance.
There are some days when you just feel old. Days when your body is tired, your mind exhausted, and your emotions are spent.
There are other days when you become nostalgic. You reminisce about growing up, distant friends, and family members you long to see.
The passing of life seems more real on certain days. Days such as anniversaries, birthdays, holidays and other dates in the calendar year which mark life changing events.
For some reason time seems to slow down on these days and we think more about the people and places that have meant so much to us and have played a role in making us who we are today.
The current of life sometimes moves too swiftly. On days when it slows may we enjoy treading water and be thankful for those who taught us how to swim.